is not my fault

when mum , you break with my dad is ur problem u hate him or what . why should i be the one also to hate him. you cant always ask me to do this and that , im d grown up not kids anymore i got my own freedom. i just cant stand that u keep wan me to think what u think is right. u said don go to far is dangerous then u got think that everywhere is danger too . i will take care my own, just don try to control me i hate that i really hate that. when u cant forgive someone don ask me to hate that person too. i just tired been in between of u n dad. can u please stop this thing. u always keep on thinking the bad things. im tired to care , im tired to believe who is right or wrong, i don wan always be a good daugther .

A bad news , real bad T.T

today morning was so sudden, i pick up a call from my aunty and the told me that
my house got burn. That moment i was stunned, i thought it was just kidding. I cant
believe that how could that happen it is so dramatic. When i realise the truth my cousin
told me by msn he say :" biao jie, your house burn left the main front wall, don be sad". I was
so surprise that my cousin is mature already. I keep on tell me self don cry, don cry but when
i think that there is my home which got a lot happy moment and was the place that i live in suck a long time till i grow up. Mum i know you are very sad and we cant do anything. Lucky i din't saw how my house burn in to nothing left. It was so sad, so sad....
i dont have the mood to go school , just let me skip for today. I need to calm down. Im lucky that Rynne my best mate always by my side when i having a hard time. In my live, there were 2 things happened which is very unfortunate. Appreciate your care about me.

IM GETTING FATTER !!!

I must stop myself from gaining weight! This semester since the school start i was losing control on my eating habit, no matter eat the meal or go yum cha. Yesterday i sudden found out that i cant fit in my jeans d !OMG! that is a serious alarm need to concern about. Then i go take a ruler to measure my waist ( WHAT I GET IS 33) Wth! My body is not a girl body is totally an auntie body. Even my mom say that she is more slim then me (i do agree with her) because i din't listen to her to exercise my waist. What a terrible disaster. Let me think ... ok , since i study secondary sch i din't care bout my waist until it pass so many years till TODAY!

I GOT TO START WORK OUT ON MY BODY !!!!

birthday ~~birth date~~~~~~~

Is been like so long to wait for my birthday coming, at last ~~ this year is my 21st birthday, now i am thinking back i have life for so long n grow so big and the time just pass by like it was just yesterday i was still a child. I'm glad that all my friends are here to celebrate with me even though is postpone to Saturday.Thanks for all my friend and best buddy rinrin, migu migu, reanne, jennie, chie, sherly, wilson, da cheng, jason, see mei, jing wei ^^on my birth date ^^

red present box ~~~~YEAH i LUV it
rin rin n migu give me de present ^^
all i also like ^^
this 2 thing is i want to buy long time ago rin n migu bought it for me d haha muacks

TIRED N FUCK OFF

today been the whole day for class n keep listening lecturer say this n that . I was dam tired for that already , during dinner time after class i my mum call then she say this n that the environment is not that safe n becareful . This kind of stuff i still can listen well to her but sudden she ask who are u going out to eat , which those guy again ah ? y always hang out wit guys AND THEN she start say is not safe , don be so close with guy ok ? FUCK MAN!!!im dam fuck off the time . i straight tell her back that can u please don keep say something like this , if i not the person that care my self i've been worst already right now. Now i only concentrate on my study n u now telling me that don pak tor this kind of stuff, IM DAM PISSED OFF !Even i know that u r worry but i got no way to tell me that to be a good god girl k, don hang out with guys there are not safe u know n now is not the time for u to pak tor . I HATE TO BE UR GOOD GIRL OK!!!
WTH ! i am so dam tired n listen to those study thing n u come n tell me this kind of little stuff , can u tell me when im free im real appreciate. My temper gone so bad dono izit ur fault.I hate someone to control me n tell me to do this n that , to tell me which is right n wrong im tired of it. PLS mum!! i beg u accept that im grow up ok, i don wan be ur baby anymore. ARRRRRHHH!!!

replacement

just wanna show back the box that we made for the project at the garden
during last term break , since i was too lazy to updated my blog i replace it now.
gomenasai~~~
this is the box that we made ^^ that paper cutting real become my night mare during that period of time doing the project phew~~~but i am having fun with the project too haha

Few days ago me and rynne go pyramid then i say i feeling like wanna have a bite of cheese cake
so we when to secret recipe but who know the malay where buka puasa . That is not the big deal , the thing i can't stand about is that we talk to the waiter he stand there and treat us like we r aliens his attitude are suck ~~ we are also customers ok!! that is not the way u should treat us by giving a face that piss off ~~ IS THE PYRAMID secret resipe so don go for there to eat next time.
I was too hunger for a bite of cake so we when to ZEN ^^. That real satisfy me . Here's we go the picture of my cake and rynne's dessert .
TA~ DA~~~ this the cake lol =.= actually nthg special
The strawberry looks pretty yummy rite ~~ but the most reason i love it because is RED color LOL~~~

thinking~

the new school semester had start and gonna busy again ,
what ever is it the figure class is still got . The one are so clever
they only change the figure class name to visual fundamental only
WTH!!!
=.=
figure is the subject i dint like much because one piece of figure
need spend lot time to draw n this term start up wit 4 piece ARRR!!
Besides figure , there are a class that i dislike is advertising principle
as i know the lecturer keep talk n yell =.= i not deaf i can heard him .

Anyway the end of this month i gonna move house ~~~yeah ho~~
gonna stick wit rin rin soon lol~
this the most happy new then i no suffer to eat outside food anymore.

AFTER that there is raya BUT this is not the main focus
the most important IS~~~ my birthday is on that raya lol~
ow~ gonna celebrate 21st birthday d
grow older sobz T,T
time pass real fast ~~
im headache about where i gonna celebrate
there are 2 bunch of fren arrrr!!!
think think ~~~~~~~~~`

WALL E~ ^^

this is wall .e so cute^^

this is eve a very high tech apple design robot is wall.e like de girl haha
actually for the robot i most love this cute little M-O
izit m-o the most cute haha i like it ^^

yesterday me , rynne and jason went to watch the wall . e is very nice movie everyone should't miss it. wall .e is so cute haha but i like that high tech robot eva n that cute little mo XD

after the movie we went to the mamak watch the badminton match which is china vs. malaysia
there no doubt china gonna win . lin dan is so cool n strong haha i like him XD his the world 1st YEAH~

This moment of time

i start become lazy again , not feeling wanna go for gym even i keep remind myself i pay for so much of money i waste if i no go. i lack of motivation to do my assignment again, is mostly the end of the semester now left the figure and the perspective to do. Thank god ! i din't choose Interior Design as my major if now i study about the basic perspective and keep drawing those line make me go insane already lol~ Glad i in AD ! sometimes i ask myself what am i doing at the room wasting my time , i don't know i really don't know, if my mum beside me will i get better and push myself harder to do my things? Maybe yes or maybe not. This day i begin to start end once a day soon my mr. gastric gonna find me again. The most important thing is that i lack of money now real broke, sometimes i think very hard where did those money go and where did i spend on? little by little those money that spend on the material real cost a lot where it total up.I believe everyone in this world will think about money, no money no life! That the realistic world we all living in now. I must go gym ~i must!! my brain is function slow again maybe there is lack of oxigen and lack of excersice? actually sometimes i real scare that i will lost part of my memory sooner or later, gotto take it seriously *keep remind myself * lol~

*poof * gone

trusthworthy

me and migu migu after the movie at the curve *sign dint get take wit rin if not will see her chio face d




yesterday there are a lot assign to pass up was busy from morning till the night. OF course night i was going to watch free movie with migu migu, rin rin and jazz. After the movie i was back home continue to do type the culture 800 words. Is a unhappy day but i was feel comfort that there are still some my buddies want to learn me their ears then i start naging lol~I was dissapointed that when a person make promise to do their part , at the end it comes out just a uncompleted work. That person from that time on had lost my trust toward him. Sudden i feel that my queen ( mum) i really miss you a lot, we been few years dint see each others.

Your prince ( me ) are growing mature and bad temper as well ( im still learning how to handle my temper ). Now i know that my queen been how manja me since im small now only i begin to notice when you are not around by my side. You are the first place in my heart no matter what happen ( i wont let u know aha ).When i feel lonely i also know you are lonely there too, even we are far but we are still conected more close then before. Luv ya lots

prince's diary

prince meet a princess

the day prince feel admired toward her is during a colourful rainy day

she's

soft temper, pretty, careful on small little things,she got a pair of pretty fingers

prince feel that his heart might change soon once there is new thing attract him

so he just told himself

don take it too serious about the princess

one day

when meet the princess , prince heard that she is telling others

that she may leave this country and travel to another which she think is nice

prince was pretend to be nothing but only he know that he was upsad when heard about it

prince could not tell her to stay for him

pray in the heart of the prince

*pls stay pls don change ur mind*

hoping princess will still by his side when the next season come ,prince was trutly admired <3 her

batik is not fun =.=

no doubt today is the day gonna done my batik for final already,
was doing it from 2.30pm till 8pm . TIRED ~~~!!!!
when come back home this is not the end of the day,
if u was thinking i can have a good rest , then just forget it ..
tomoro is figure class .Figure class seem free right only one figure to draw BUT!!
when the final assign coming there is lot extra work again to do ~
yawn~~ wish i chould just lay down on the bed n sleep till the morning
OF COURSE there is just think only
friday there is the final for the perspective assign that need to draw bed room
i was thought after the bed room assign there will be no more wee~~~
hey~! NOT FREE YET OK!!!
there will be one more assign that we need to draw bunglow
excuse me !! u think i real architecture izit =.=
Next monday got presentation and final
People say good thing come double
OBJECTION !! bad thing do come double too lol~~ (start insance d LOL)
After monday is not free also there will be culture final assign to pass up!
OMG!!!! is fun is crazy is tired is IS ISISISISISIISISISISI~~~!~~~~~



*puff* disappear =.=

BIG big big

yesterday went to carl's jr try their burger is real HUGE !!!

mine ~~ fish burger ^^

I LOVE THE fried~~~~it is tasty n crunchy ~~

thumbs up for CARL'S Jr. ~~ Mcdonals, Wendy also lost le lol~~

lazy buzzy

im getting lazy d

lucky stil got rin rin beside so we can keep on telling must go gym must go lol

money fly again sobZZ

i wan buy my puma pants (is super duper triper nice le AW~~)

i wan to wear nice nice de short pants ( too fat to show my legs now )

i wan nike sport shirt ( bo lui to buy now =.=)

i wan get many A's ( was try my best to get a for each subject = do it do it !)

i wan n i wan n i wan ... etc x10000

cant even finish satisfy my desire lol

but is good tat i willing for something so i will do for the sake of tat *smirk*





sa-yo-na-ra

which should i choose hm~~

bout the visual com assignment there r 2 choice for me to choose:

a) pasar malam (marks of fusion) = risky+ fun

b) batik = normal + low risk

one step wrong is up to heaven or down to the hell.

so .... real should think very very careful

so hard to make the decision ><

gone MAD !!!!!

FOR those PRO IDIOT don think u know a bit then at there act pro !!

see the face also wan slap xia qu !

u think u r so clever ? u think ur the best?

U DON EVEN KNOW HOW TO RESPECT PPL !!!

real dam f**king lan ci ppl

just just a dam stupid kids that act like an adult !!!

f*CK OFF LA !!!!

don think too much =.=

keep on ur study baka =.= ( was scolding myself lol)

u where got so many time to think about those study thing

just leave it

U no nEED it right now !!!

forget it forget it !!!!

ps: people who read my blog lol

i was start talking to myself d lol~~~hahaha

not mad la =.=

today the visual com class let me think that izit sometimes i think too over?

izit i pretend to more pro n produce a more good idea then others?

sometimes it just a simple thing the lec think is so good n nice

i think i just too wish people to say im doing a good job =.=

should slap myself hard to make me wake up

dam baka me !

im still far away from the A

was think is on my way there but actually i havent reach the door yet

KEEP ON GOING U IDIOT !!

OBJECTION !!!!!

i wanna clear this ~~

today me n rynne when to gym for yoga

on the way ~

on the bus =.=

in front side of me got a endao ( nice nose , fair skin , nice BAG (catch my attention first), nice
nice all over

who know ~~

when we till the stop we gonna get down

he was stand up n get down first

HERE IS THE TIME

DISASTER happen ~~

i saw tat his flyer dint zip on =.= wth (IM NOT INTEND TO LOOK AT IT OK)

his infront of me ma ><

then i was telling rynne bout it

wat u gonna do if u saw someone fly unzip ?

u will let him know ?

then i say tat i will tell but i will keep on laughing n pointed at him n say

hey mister ...zhzhahah...ar... ur fly is unzip LOL~~~~~ BLUHAHAHAH

i cant stop my self ma cause

everything is so perfect sudden like tat

so SO SO >>>>>>> is not my fault la to laugh at him

MUAHAHAHA

nice day even though~~~~ <3

start school =.=

today class make me start to thinking ..

im i real sux in graphic n design ?

feel real dissapointed because im so weak ..

i hate this feel

i wan improve i wan ppl to know im there

feel so lonely ~

Sweet Korea strawbery ~~~~~~<3

come pick me !!!! lol ~~~tat what i heard frm it XD

irresistable >< look yummy ^^

red red de strawberry nice leh =3

this is what i bought yesterday is real nice ^^ <3

wendy ~~~~ <3

wendy de logo lol~~~~

my meal la see wat see XD jkjk hem !!!! im not rude de im not lol~~~

me n migu migu ^^

migu migu n yinying =3

leng lui de yinying ready to eat lo ~~~~<3

today when wendy yeah~~~~<3

with migu migu n yinying =3

there food there nice ^^

is fast food la =.=

ngiak ngiak new de fast food store wah eat more la eat more ~~~ fat sei

Happy hAppy day again ~~~~ swing ~~~<3

yum yum dinner lol ~~

Inside of the pack is like this ^^ kawaii also lol ~~~~

see this package ? is not toy o is curry ^^ yum yum

haha cute leh

my dinner ngiak ngaik

of course it is not made by hamster meat swt =.=

HAPPY HAPPY go eat dinner lo ~~~~~~~~~~~bye bye kaka

nice gathering <3

yesterday is our class CD075-3 gathering

is real nice ~

is hard to tell ya the feelings lol

is real good to see those guys we been tgt for last 2 month b4

we still connected together well altought we all in diff major d

SUPER NICE GATHERING

i enjoy it very much

after we bbq till 1am we this bunch of weirdo guys wanna go stimbot

is 1am where still got stimbot shop open la swt =.=

so we went to nearby yum cha lo ^^

talking nonsence , making jokes , chit- chat bout

everyone is having fun ^^

luv ya guys tat if meet

is a real good memorize ^^ ~~ ~<3

Some memory about bao bao ><

here come the bao bao new mate who name bibi ( now only left bibi oneT.T bao bao rest in peace )

he is continue eating no matter what ( cause he the boss ma )

this naughty feller wake up straight go eat that y so fat ( fei zai yi ge)

bao bao continue tidur like a pig ~~~~ he is the boss

bao bao kepo-ing around when heard the snap sound lol~~

he was awake by me when i snap photo from him XD

This cute bao bao first time come home ^^ he was sleeping on the wheel

bao bao dead T.T 31/3

today is a sad day

is the day i lost something precious bao bao

is my fault

i din't care bout u guys ><

u wil be memorable always in my hearts <3

to my lub cutie bao bao:

pray that u have a safe jorney to heaven

pray that next time u reborn may find a good person to care bout you

pray that u forgive my careless

blessing u with my kiss from my heart

T.T

u will be remembered in my heart

cookies ^^ <3

one for reanne one for me =3

Yeah i bought my cookies mirror liao muahaha ^^

reanne when u saw this mirror dont eat it lol try to control ur hunger XD

IS a dream but it hate change XD

is the dream !!!

is the dream again ~~~

but this time was a little different ^^

i was dreamed that i at a hotel dinner

someone was asking me to go buy beer

i was telling that i don't have money

and that someone is ( a tb endao one sommore i tau his name call S )

weird right lol

i said i don't have money to buy beer

if u wanna buy u give me money XD

S ( refer to up there ) he real pay me but he also willing to come with me

the next since is we went to a shoping market like that de place

sudden there are a bunch ppl blocking us and say

give money to them

this time is few ppl vr. we 2

S real give them the money but i throw my bag toward them

and grab S start running away ><

we keep on running~~~

dono till where d ......... swt =.=

ending weird but at least this time

im not alone to face this prob again ><

althought is a dream bout im glad i got S ( refer up there la )

LOL~~~~~~~~~~~~~<3

bad day =.=

i was gonna take money frm bank frm few days ago till now but

what happen was.......

everytime i go bank ok first day i slp late ...

2 times holiday bank close

3 times close early FUCKING hell

tomorrow i must go TO BANK EARLY

this all thing is i made it myself i know that

there are nthg to blame about but im just

wanna give myself a good excuse lol ... slap myself =.=

can u imagine pass day by day with only 3 or 4 ringgit

that what my day pass

is good to have little money so that i wont spend much

what a stupid joke =.= ...... slap myself again

dono what life for sometimes

maybe im too free

maybe im to burden

maybe im lazy

maybe im emo

maybe n maybe n maybe ...

i know i should get up myself n do my thing

but anyone can tell me how to

chop off my lazy act

i also don't want i continue to be like that

where is my motivation

..........

despair .....

T.T sadness my stop one day

sad T.T

maybe i take too serious in the fake game world

tat day so sudden 2 of my maple dars online

find me in the same time

i was WTH

swt =.=

i know playing between 2 ppl is no good but

is just too lonely ><

they ask me to choose either one of them

but this is the hard choice n im too useless to make the decision

i choose to myself to be alone

at first i tot is a good choice but

im wrong

really wrong ><

the choice i choose made me lost a fren (ben )T.T

he quit maple

i not sure izit because of me but he say i bored wit maple

n wanna quit for very long time ago

haiz ... maybe i too ego only thinking bout myself

too sad to maple anymore

i know there still lot of fren in maple care bout me

but once on maple will let me remind back the situation again

i had lost a fren T.T

im a real stupid idiot to handle this luv or relationship

real baka ><

may time to cure ba

BAKA TOT

stupid blog i not gonna repeat again what i written just now

dam it

dam pek chek

dulan

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

nothing getting better no matter in reality or fake world

i hate my self

nightmares~~~~~~~~~~><

i real had a nightmare when wake up, i dream bout many sad thing , dream bout y no ppl gonna believe n help me is real scary ! this days im sick wit my time, i do nthg but just game , eat, slp ...over n over again . there is figure homework waiting for me to do but i real lack of motivation to do it ! wat should i do ~~~ s.o.s.~~~~~~~~~~~

i luv my ben ~~~~<3

ytd is a best day too ^^ althought me n ben is not just know each other in maple , but ytd i real beh pai seh de ask him be my dar liao XD rl happy neh ~~~~~<3 he very nice n cute ^^ does't look like a 18 should be very mature ^^ can handle my moody temper XD wakaka . We both agree tat we just maple dar but come to rl life we r close frens ^^ omg ~~~~~~~<3 his dam cute to me ^^ im so happy to hav him by my side* muacks ben*<333333333333333

is real fcuK !!!!!!

i real dono what my mum think im !!! a small kids ? im big enough than she ever think i was d !!! i just cant stand it !!!!! ar!!!!!!!don talk to me like talking to a small kids n i hate to live under ur control !! im not ur slaves !!!!!

1st ~~~~~~~~

so bored ~~~~ was nothing to do then start open my blog .......life without direction now , just like floating in the middle of the sea. It was deep , cold and lonely .